so hard to choose =/
haix... have been feeling weird this few days, sharing my problems with my brothers and hearing out their advices they had given me... but it all comes back to me, that i still have to make my decision, should i or not give up on her... i don't know. simply can't make up my mind, it's like one part of my heart says i should not give up and the other says i should... stress ah stress, but still i own u, my brothers a big thank for helping me and giving me advices. i know i really need the never-say-die attitude but i don't know if it works for me =/ why can't i stop thinking of her, probably i love her too deep, i really fang bu xia ta... i miss her so much. hoping to get a chance from her... JUST ONCE, this once, i'm still waiting badly... after all i done, care and concern for you. you still didn't feel anything ? i don't know. maybe i didn't show it clearly enough for you to see, or maybe u didn't appreciate it, i don't know either... 3 weeks of holiday, sometimes i feel like i want to see you, and sometimes i don't, i'm so confused. which one should i choose ? did i ask you too fast ? tell me, let me give you sometime to think... i really love you. it hurts me to see that i and you can't communicate well, i'm trying my best to bring myself close to you, to know you and letting know how much i care about you... i'm so scared of losing you. i had that experience once and i don't want it again, but this time i don't have a choice bahz going to face this experience again. all i can do now is pray hard and wait for your answer. wo bu xiang fang qi ying wei wo hai ai ni, i love you
